I can feel their anxiety and fear but I don't want agoraphobia to come roost at my home again. So, I forced myself to get up, put on the "thus is going to be uncomfortable suit" and drove to a familiar park 30 minutes miles away.
Yes, it took a good deal of effort to get out of the car and walk for two miles. Part of us, well, a really small part of us enjoyed being out.
By the end of the walk, my left hand started gesturing in the odd, familiar way that it does when the Littlest Littles are near. That provided me with answers.
These new ones aren't used to being away from home. They don't know us Bigs well enough to know they are always completely safe and loved and cared for when we leave the house. It's like they've not experienced a world outside of the Lincoln apartment from the early 60's. It's challenging to communicate with preverbal Alter People Littles. Somehow, we need an intermediary or someone to help, another Caregiver, to facilitate more effective communication with them.
Being Preverbal Alter People Littles under a year old,they communicate with gestures, exclusively with the left hand these past weeks. Touch, they understand touch. Maybe we can find a better way to hold them, carry them around in a more secure, understanding fashion.
Our focus is on helping these Littlest Littles feel safe with us Bigs.
Working on it.
