Sunday, May 26, 2024

Everything is changing

 I've arrived at this new point in life wherein everything is changing. I can actually look in the mirror and see my self, my body, my face, and not turn away in revulsion, self-hatred or wondering who it is looking back at me.

I was out in a public place, a rarity in and of itself, and there was a very small child in my view, and I did not turn away or move my chair. instead, I smiled, winked and waved. 

When I look at the clouds, I see shapes, readily, easily, and apparent without effort or forethought. Until this week, even though I stared and studied clouds frequently, I never saw anything more than wonderous, fluffy white stuff. 

I cut my hair for the first time in the seven years that I have lived here. It is now of a length those of us Out remember, can relate to and identify with.

My choice in clothing is different. The two coats I have worn these past five years are now stored away in the closet, replaced by two new ones from the thrift store. One is a much lighter color with a fairly modern style. The other is red, waterproof, puffy, warm and it feels like I'm wearing pleasant protective armor.

All about me, all within me, has shifted. I need to make note of these changes so all are aware.

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