Having difficulty sharing these days. We are working with pre-4 stuff. It's astounding to see how the System formed. Reminds me of the Big Bang. Our Universe was formed because my dad abused us every single day, for the most part, from our earliest memories. Once a day was average but often it was more than that.
Our System, our Littles formed words.
Here are the first four words we understood and that mattered:
Broke- we were broken and we knew it as did everyone around us. Broke was our first word.
Fant- was our second word. It means to dissociate, to leave the body. One would fant out, get out of the body when harm was headed our way.
Ally- was the place outside of the body that we went to. It was safe in the Ally. You didn't get hurt if you were in the Ally.
Our fourth word we spoke of today for the very first time with Therapist.
Our fourth word is
Thorn
Thorn- was the word we used to describe sexual abuse from our dad. Thorn was an incident of severe abuse.
We were Little, under 2 years old so we had to find words that we could understand and use amongst ourselves.
Our entire earliest years revolved around daily sexual abuse from our dad, our primary care giver.
Yeah, we aren't like you. Our foundation, our experiences are really different.
Broke
Fant
Ally
Thorn
A child's first words......think about it....sad...
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