Odd Man Out, time to share

I think that when the bad stuff, the traumatic hurt stuff, was taking place, we never thought that info would see the light of day.

We didn't store it internally with the thought "oh, we will package this alter nice and neat so that she will easily be able to talk about this in the future."

No. We did not believe we had any future except to figure out how to deal with the next assault because there was always going to be a next assault as it was a daily and weekly thing. 

It seems like it should be acceptable, now that we have found a person (Therapist) who can emotionally handle hearing our truths. 

Yeah, I think we should talk and write about it because it would be tons healthier to have that stuff out rather than in.

I mean, inside means requiring a certain amount of energy to contain it. It's like each repressed memory requires a payment or a fee or a certain amount if energy to hold it in place. Plus, holding nasty stuff inside is like swallowing a leaky, toxic time bomb.

Nothing can stay hidden and buried forever or without great price. 

That's the stuff that makes us sick, memories and the emotions attached to them.

We never thought we'd ever find relief from the storehouse of sentries and walls and locks. It was just our job to "mind the store", make sure the locks stayed on.

But I think that is old stuff, old news.

I think we will feel tons better if we slower open the sealed, poorly stored crates of hideous memories.

One at a time and with care, start talking and writing.

I'm a new mindset to an age old problem

It isn't the past anymore.

No one outside is actively spending their days planning our next assault or trick.

My vote is to have Others of US consider the possibility, the very strange and outlandish possibility that we can readily talk about the bad hurt stuff and start feeling better physically and emotionally.

Odd Man Out